Conscious Creator or Reactive Victim
When seeing how I was allowing myself to get W A Y off-track today, I noticed that my thoughts were on a downward spiral.
And, after such a good morning!
Meditating, quiet time contemplating how to create my day, a great session with my shaman/business coach, some delicious coffee, and some creating of new connections for new business through a referral service..then BAM!
What I learned was that each of these “referrals” was costing me. Not even if they were qualified or for a $10,000 project, but even for single or short term $500 coaching package.
Ahhh, so this is the cost of being “in flow?”
Or, is it my resistance to being open to really having it come to me with grace and ease?
And, then the inner critic. The “I told you so!” The “you knew there would be a cost associated, didn’t you?” And on and on. Down the slippery slope of shame, doubt, confusion, until I hit victim. This is where I walk around, looking for something to eat, activities to distract, and ways to numb.
I really dislike feeling yucky like that anymore. And I am beginning to become aware of it earlier and earlier.
So, what to do now?
Inward and downward. Remembering this is all temporary, and a result of where I WAS, not where I’m going.
Clarity emerges. Bit by bit. With each breath. I am in Creative space. Bye-bye Reactive Self. I’m back in the driver’s seat. And, from here, the words flow.
Momentum is like being in a canoe floating down stream. It’s easy. It feels good. The scenery changes and I get to see what is around me.
So unlike fighting against the current. Where all my attention is on pushing and striving.
Back in Flow. Back to Creating my Life.
More will be shared in the podcast, I’m sure. Listen in?
Share with me, where do you get stuck? What are your practices for turning yourSelf around?